About 12 years ago I was advised, by a healer I visited, to surrender. I had no idea where to start and what to do, I was intrigued by the idea, but alas, life continued and i got busy with it! forgetting all about the advice to surrender. Fast forward 12 years and I have been confronted with surrender again! (Funny how things we need to do, come back!) Again I was puzzled by surrender. Again, I was looking for what I needed to “do”, I asked friends, who tried to explain, but I didn’t “get”it. I also knew I needed to surrender, to allow things to flow, but how do I do it? That is where my problem / difficulty lay, what do I need to do? I am a ‘doer’ tell me what I need to do and I will give it a go….Well, with surrender, it’s actually the opposite – this may be completely obvious to some, but it hasn’t been to me. I don’t need to do anything, I just need to let go – stop holding on so tightly to everything I’m trying to do.
I live in a cluttered environment, too many things, particularly paper related, books, notes, worksheets, manuals from courses etc! can anyone relate? I have also gone back to primary school teaching, something which requires lots of preparation & being “old school’ lots of paperwork! I also am trying to create a spiritual business, to help others along their healing journey. Have I mentioned I also wish to de-clutter and tidy up the house ready for sale at the end of the year? So, how can I let go of anything, my mind tells me I need to work on all of these areas to move ahead and achieve all of my goals. There is so much to do and everything takes so much time – aahhh what do I let go of?
Well, I have realised that I must let go of / surrender to, the house. It feels uncomfortable, it could even be a struggle for me, I’m planning to do it anyway! Even though it’s scary, I know that it is the only way, even though my mind has always thought differently, and it seems counter productive, it IS my way forward! Don’t get me wrong here, I really do want to live less cluttered and there are things i want to do before putting the house on the market, but I’m so focused on it that it’s causing me to worry and stress, I’ve even used it as a reason for not moving forward in my life. In surrendering, all of my struggle, worry and angst that I have suffered over “the house” in the last few years, where I’ve put in efforts to declutter, but haven’t made much progress, all of my guilt and negative self-talk will be released, freeing me to progress. So I must ALLOW myself to surrender to it, just let it go. Let go of the worry, the guilt, the negative self talk. I own that we are surrounded by ‘stuff’, that we have too many possessions, and lots of things are out, not in cupboards, not in use, most of which I have created, and accept it. I’ve been focussed way too much and for too long, on the house and don’t seem to be making any progress, despite trying to. So for anyone reading this who may also be struggling with too many things on their plate or feeling you are not making any progress, I challenge you to also surrender, to let go of the struggle, focus on what has to be done and let the area of biggest struggle go – its npt going anywhere, it will be there when you get back to it (hopefully, by focussing on what has to be done, the rest will also improve!, maybe wishful thinking but I’m still getting used to the idea of surrender).
So I’m surrendering to my clutter, surrendering to my collecting and diving into the things I have collected to move me into what I need to do and that’s change my own life and assist those around me. I have chosen to be a healer, to help others. I have collected lots of books, paperwork & knowledge along the way, all of which has become clutter, because I’ve been so busy collecting, that I havent been using this knowledge and information. So now I must use it, for myself and those I come into contact with. I am a teacher, and one of the best ways to teach is by example and also bysharing the wisdom I have collected.
I hope that by me sharing my experience with surrender, it has helped you to realise an area in your life that you need to surrender to. Let go of the struggle, and free yourself, you deserve it.
I’ve made a card for myself to support me in my surrender:
on the out breath, say “I surrender”
on the in breath “I am safe”
Breathing in that I am safe and letting go on the out breath, it’s new, it’s scary, I need support!
Give it a go, you never know, it just may relax you and make it all ok, allow the surrender, allow yourself to let go. It’s taken me 12 years to figure this out, make your life easier today.