Dear THE Rural Woman,
This month is about ZEAL.
And to be completely honest, in the moments leading up to me penning this note to you, I’ve felt the complete opposite of ZEAL (defined by the internet as great energy or enthusiasm in pursuit of a cause or an objective)
I’ve felt the weight of my own internal mind become heavier and heavier in the past few weeks as I grasp desperately for safety, enoughness and peace.
I’m not sure of myself or my decisions, I feel emotionally tumultuous.
At the same time as I feel overwhelming gratitude I feel the depths of doubt and despair.
I feel lost at the same time as feeling more found than ever.
I know so much and yet feel like a babe learning to walk again; in new uncomfortable steps that don’t quite fit.
I worry I’m headed to dark places I’ve been before and vowed never to return and yet, there’s great comfort and indeed transformation in those places.
“Sometimes when you‘re in a dark place you think you‘ve been buried, but you‘ve actually been planted.” Christine Caine
At these times, I now know I always have the tools and ‘all the answers lie within’ so I allowo the messages I need to hear find me.
This morning a beautiful card reminded me of the abundance in my life and of my need to ‘receive’ and then, this video turned up in my newsfeed.
I’ve watched it many times before….but today my soul needed to hear it and I wondered – does yours?
It’s ZEAL encompassed and it reminds me that even during these ‘dark nights of the soul’ times – there is ZEAL in the process….I have a deep enthusiasm and passion for THRIVING. HEALING. EVOLVING and that comes with a price.
And the price is RESISTANCE….the resistance to change, the ego’s shouting, the urgency versus surrender – and the remembrance that they ALL play a role and they are all necessary for the richness and fullness of life…ZEAL!
Jason reminds us to remember that an aeroplane takes off into the wind (Henry Ford)….we need resistance, we need struggle – and most importantly, we need to be cracked wide open by beauty to let the light in.
Surrender to what is and all is well.
This is the message of ZEAL.
May you bloom where you are planted,